I PROMISE

Childhood is supposed to be about fun
It’s designed for us to laugh and to learn and to run
But every step that I took was a burden to you
This was made clear to me from the time I was two
I can barely remember a time when I smiled
The pain was so heavy and on me you just piled
All of your guilt about what you had done
When you gave into lust with that woman not mom

I promise there will be a day
When all these bills will be paid
I promise you will see
What you’ve done to me

Did you really believe you were better than me?
Cause I’ve spent a lifetime trying to see
How one man’s mistakes could suddenly be
Laid at my doorstep just so you could be free
How dare you rape my childhood
How dare you break me down
To the point of no return
With just a simple frown

I promise there will be a day
When all these bills will be paid
I promise you will see
What you’ve done to me

I remember your face when I told you I knew
About what you had done and how your vows were untrue
The shock and the horror was just your fake crutch
Me thinks thou doth protest too much

I promise there will be a day
When all these bills will be paid
I promise you will see
What you’ve done to me

It’s not my fault you couldn’t keep it in your pants
So you made me your burden for the “I wont’s” and “I cant’s”
Did it make you feel like more of a man
To lay all the blame at my feet like you planned?

I promise there will be a day
When all these bills will be paid
I promise you will see
What you’ve done to me

It’s been fifty plus years since you started your shit
And you still keep it up cause you just can’t quit
Refusing to believe you did anything wrong
But your time is growing short and it won’t be too long
Someday you will have to look in my eyes
Really, truly look and finally realize
That the burden was YOU
And maybe you should have just been sterilized

I promise there will be a day
When all these bills will be paid
I promise you will see
What you’ve done to me